Odyssey of My Mind

2009-11-15T20:24:00.004+08:00

My mum needs to stfu.
Stop creating ideas that only benefit you and turn the tables agaisnt me
Making up things that you dream would happen, things that put me in a bad position
I need to run away, the words you said can never be put down on paper
it's too painful to do so.

I don't love you like i did yesterday.
-My Chemical Romance.

2009-11-01T20:16:00.002+08:00

TODAY WAS CONFIRMATION
For the first time, i was scared about reading up there cos it's all my friends watching me, but anws it was fine.
Didn't give the hersheys kisses to joel though hahaha

AND OMG AFTER CONFIRMATION WAS SO HACKING SCARY
Like uncle george's son, one of the twins i think, apparently punched cesco
and then he punched the glass, and it broke and his whole arm started bleeding and omg
Then cesco's gang (i didnt even know he had a gang) started to fight
and uncle george was strangling one of the boys
and joel and kyle got into it
and they were all shouting and IT'S THE HOUSE OF GOD OMG.

Yeah it was so scary, and they were fighting in church tsk :/
AND IT WAS AFTER CONFIRMATION.
I guess my confirmation will be a memorable one.

The only other time i felt this harrowed was when panic split up.
And i felt so sick afterwards, idk why.

2009-10-25T18:10:00.002+08:00

CON 3 CAMP IS FINISHED, AND NEXT WEEK IS MY CONFIRMATION AND AFTER THAT I WON'T SEE MY FRIENDS EVER AGAIN. ):
It makes me sad that today was the last day of the last church camp and we didn't do much.
Other than healing last night, where everyone cried and people who i didn't expect to fall down, got slayed by the holy spirit and fell. And i didn't know guys could cry that much. I cried too, but i was partly resting my head on the pew. The group sharing sessions were awkward fun. The secret glances, the eager hellos and the awkward poke were strangely fun too.

I rmb joel and i planning for what we could do after confirmation to stay in touch with everyone. But srsly, what are the chances of your classmates/friends going to the same mass as you. :/ I really am gonna miss everyone.

My heart feels this funny feeling when my head sees you.
You give me butterflies.

2009-10-11T01:24:00.002+08:00

HI IT'S THE 11TH OF OCTOBER, and this has been the longest time since i have posted here wowz.

The newspapers on saturday was depressing
I havent felt that sad over a natural disaster in a long time, cos i dont usually feel sad.
Hehehahah, anws i guess this blog will be used to type all the stuff on my mind and i know noone other than cherlyn will come here and read it :D

I feel like putting up a secret here and waiting if anyone reacts.
Maybe i could put up a fake secret, okay i shall do that teehee.

I was thinking of smth profound this afternoon but i forgot RAHHHH
I LOVE TUMBLR, I LOVE FUCKYEAHPATD.TUMBLR.COM because it makes me feel special haha omg i sound so ego.

I still tear up whenever people bring up things about panic's split that hits the spot.
Like how well ryan and brendon worked together, the bestfriends, brendon missing ryan and it seems to evolve around these two. But i think spencer's like deeeeeeply affected too.
I mean come one, if your childhood friend ditched you just before going on a tour with your favourite band, wouldnt you feel like dafnjksfnfhksrfk.

I admire brendon urie, for his voice for his strength idk.

I AM SPEAKING LIKE A FANGIRL rah bamchickerpowwow i learnt that from ryangoeswoahhhh. It's supposed to eb lightning, though i say lightning sounds like pfftz.

okay secret time to see if anyone notices or comes up to me and asks haha:
I once stole a magazine accidentally. Then i threw it away.

OKAY TIME TO SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE ACTUALLY READ :D

2009-09-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

I miss typing alot of things in one blank space.

Tumblr lets me post pictures, but posting long posts seems rly weird.
And twitter, 140 words enough said.

Sigh, i kind of miss the old days where everyone has a blog and everytime we changed our address, we'd go around tagging people's tagboards and announcing it to the world. And typing about your day doesn't seem like a bore or a show off or a no-lifer, it was just that. Typing about your day~

Mmhmm, anyways, went to church today to see kelly's first holy communion which was quite cute.
Haha don't you miss the P3 times, when all you had to worry about was what you would get in the goody bag (:
There were quite alot of altar boys, just saying haha.
Met andre and joel on the way out, maybe i shouldnt have been so shy pfft.
THAT WAS MY DAY, MY MOM DANCED TO WEIGHTLESS BY ALLTIMELOW, but i guess everyone knows that, since i posted it on twittttah.

I think i have a crush, but maybe not.
Cause i kinda avoid/forgot/fear that queasysweetbutterfly feeling.
RAH EXAMS ARE IN 6 DAYS BEEYOTCH.

2009-09-21T01:10:00.004+08:00

OKAY TO SHOW THAT IM NOT SOME EMO BUM WHO POSTS CUT-WORTHY THINGS HERE, I SHALL POST PICTURES THAT MAKE ME HAPPY.

MARTINJOHNSONNN

PRECISELY, THIS IS A WHOLE S-LOAD OF BRENDON PICTURES.

YES I LIKE BOYS HUGGING EACH OTHER IN A NON-SEXUAL (or so i think) WAY.

MOAR HUGZ.

AND CREEPY PAPARAZZI PHOTOS OF ASHLEE SIMPSON AND BRONX.

AND THESE KIND OF BOYZ TOO.

i like brendon acting like a 5 year old too.

FRIENDS, THIS IS MY LIFE ON TUMBLR.

2009-09-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

HEY ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY.
(Yeah, the only time i blog here is on special dayzzz pfft)

Thanks a bunch of flowers to everyone on smsed/facebooked/wished me :D

I'm now filming with joellyn and cheryl, like seriously, now.
The camera's right behind me mmhmm
I'm supposedly talking about my day as a nerd,
I got continuously beat up by sadrina yup.

Yeah so thats it, thank you to everyone who wished me
im just typing the same thing cos the camera is still rolling heehee
Oh, and specialthanks to PIG+Cynthia for the OREO CUPCAKES
I want to thank everyone but that would be a bore, maybe not.

2009-09-07T21:08:00.002+08:00

Day 1 of holidays, wasted.
Okay maybe not, went to school to get blazers WHICH IS ALWAYS A VERY TRAUMATISING EXPERIENCE.
Then played with melzikunemilykim's group's rubiks cubes and funky IQ stuff that sydney couldnt solve mmhmm

We were supposed to be discussing smp stuff, but i found chess on sydney's laptop so i played against her and after a very expressive round I WON HAHA, even though the com said it was a draw but i totally checkmated her king.

anw, watched tv lalala read a book did not do hmwk
i think i'm scared for smp :/

2009-09-06T00:36:00.002+08:00

Went for East District Youth Rallyyy, quite fun actually
got to know the boys in my cat class and had these sharings and stuff

then we were bussed to IJKC pri, and saw all the other parishes like olps, st stephen, queen of peace, and holy fam.
SAW ANDREA, haha quite cool.
Thenthenthenthen, all the talks and had mass and saw lots of people, and ryan got scolded by the archbishop.

Yup, it was fun, singing praise to our Lord with all my friends, valerie has all the pics yupyuppp.

2009-09-04T21:53:00.002+08:00

Should i be sad because:
a) I kind of regretted this
b) that three dear members of SID have left
c) SID's not gonna be what's it gonna be
I wanted to cry with huijun, but ahwell you have to be happy when others are happy.

I found brendon pictures on ruijia's file (:
Quite a number of people in sc like panic eh.

AND CONGRATS TO FARISHA, ILUSFM IM GONNA WATCH YOU SOMEHOWWWW.

2009-09-03T22:43:00.001+08:00

I really badly srsly realllllly want to go for SCMUN
but SCMUN will happen in the march holidays, which is also the swim camp
and being the captain of swim, i have a responsibility to be there for the team.

):

2009-09-01T13:28:00.000+08:00

HI EVERYONE.

I need to study for EOYs, i think i just hyperventilated at the thought of all the subjects i have.

2009-08-23T22:26:00.002+08:00

When i was young, I actually had a list of what I wanted to have/do when I got to be a teenager.
I ACTUALLY HAD A LIST, MYGOODNESS.
And in this list, a stereotypical teenager would:
have braces (check)
wear converses (check)
play the guitar (check)

yet i dont feel as happy as i thought i would be :/

Heykids, this is what secondary school does to you.

2009-08-20T19:04:00.004+08:00

Twit-uh.
Twittwattwut

I like my friends (:

Do not stick your finger in, blow or play with my balloon flag.
Because it has a name yes.

This is random this is senseless, this is WEIGHTLESS
"I'm so sick of watching all the minutes pass, as i go nowhere"

I AM HUNGRY, I wear pink, PIG needs more talk sessions.

I have to go for lectors now and licktor, sounds like a pokemon
RAHHHHH.

2009-08-16T22:48:00.004+08:00

Not trying to cheat on blogger, but when you need ~~love~~ quotes, tumblr's always the best place (:

Today i went to mass to lector and apparently the attachment's supposed to end alrd which is kidna sad cos i really like being a lector :D
(be proud of me leonard)

And then went to catclasss, everyone seemed very eccentric.
THEN I HAD TO GO FOR THIS INDONESIAN MASS, so thats two masses in one day ):
mmhmm, then went for this ~secret thing that i'm not gonna tell anyone about hawhaw.

I dont like school, cos i always have this philosophy that school always cheats me of everything.
Not because of the workload or whatever that people complain about. Its just that i feel that even though schools are supposed to bring out your talents and whatever, they're just empty promises that they tell you to make you stay in school. This excludes those people who are alrd identified and get picked on every. single. time. Yeah, this is hypocracy. This is SPARTAAAAA.

I just felt like doing that.

Oh and i feel that i'm the most cowardly person ever.
This is different from being scared.

"This is my heart." -ryden slash

2009-08-12T19:30:00.001+08:00

Firetruck, :/

2009-08-10T16:23:00.003+08:00

I HAVE AN ULCER IN MY
THROAT
so every single time i swallow, or even move my mouth
intense
PAIN
PAIN
PAIN
PAIN

I feel like shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttt.
Grr.

Hi nicoleeee~

2009-08-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

Have you ever judged a person by how he appears on the surface? Have you treated a person just because they seem to tolerate you and enjoy your teasings? Even if he's a superstar living a perfect life, have you ever thought what things he's going through behind that masquerade?

My coach's mother passed away yesterday because of a brain tumour. This meant that she would have been suffering from this for quite a while, thus making my coach involved in her pain too. This made me think of these weeks that the team has been teasing him and joking around with him, and to think of the pain he was hiding :/

So, my deepest condolences for coach on his mum's passing. May God bless him and his family (:

2009-08-03T14:54:00.004+08:00

HALLOW EVERYONE
Im back after 8378093 days not posting
The last time i posted was in july, and now it's august!
UH-MAY-ZING
Okay fine, that was 29 july, and now its 3 aug

ANYWAYZ, i cam back from GIB on saturday
It was fun, met the juniors (:
Then right aftr i got home, i had to follow my whole my family to watch song of the sea, which was alright.
The plot was just this guy who was trying to revive this princess from her coma, and while doing so, he had to pass through all this people of different elements.
But the visual effects was STUNNING, there was fire and water spouts and LASERS&FIREWORKZ 8)

I like this cos it has the after-sprinkles of fireworks.

LASERZZZ.

mhmmm, and now im sick.
I had a fever of 39.5 last night and i have a headache and cough
The doctor gave me 4 days mc, which is lucky cos i still have to lead the marching contingent on friday (:

Yup, so see you everyone on friday :D

2009-07-29T19:56:00.002+08:00

NEW PERSPECTIVE by Panic!

(1)I feel the salty waves come in
I feel them crash against my skin
(2)And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win
There's a haze above my TV
That changes everything I see
And maybe if I continue watching
I'll lose the traits that worry me

(3)Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
(4)You come along because I love your face
And I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
(5)But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
(6)We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
(7)And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

Can we fast-forward to go down on me?
Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

More to the point, I need to show
How much I can come and go
(8)Other plans fell through
And put a heavy load on you
I know there's no more that need be said
When I'm inching through your bed
Take a look around instead and watch me go

Stop there and let me correct it
I wanna live a life from a new perspective
You come along because I love your face
and I'll admire your expensive taste
And who cares divine intervention
I wanna be praised from a new perspective
But leaving now would be a good idea
So catch me up on getting out of here

It's not fair, just let me perfect it
Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensive
'cause seeing clear would be a bad idea
Now catch me up on getting out of here
So catch me up I'm getting out of here

-
I have this feeling that this song is about ryan ross and his band and whats happened.
Maybe I'm thinking too much about ryden or the situation itself, but idk ):

(1) Sounds like he's fapping
(2) Ryan and jon will never succeed?
(3) EVEN BRENDON SAID THAT THAT LINE MEANT A BJ OKAY. I sense some ryden here.
(4) Ryan's face and his exquisite, high class, older-than-his-age personality (RYDEN)
(5) Ryan and jon leaving ):
(6) They've gotten over it (or have they?) and are pursuing their different interests.
(7) As the days pass, their lyrics will become increasingly different, more separate ):
(8) Ryan breaking up with keltie, his coke addiction
and obviously, new perspective means seeing everything in a different light, or maybe it's ryan's new perspective on music. Either way, it's sad.

I'M THINKING TOO MUCH HERE, this is the obsessive side of me.
I'm sorry i used quite a bit of jargon here and there but i'm trying to keep my blog child-readable at all times, yup.
I felt like i just did an analysis on some poem

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Helped joellyn and miranda in their media studies project by acting for them, with carolyn (:
I want to learn media, its looks kick awesome.

2009-07-28T20:05:00.003+08:00

I felt very awkward today, like one of those days where you feel you're out of place and you have nothing to contribute to conversations or the likes. I seem to be getting more of these awkward days lately.

I realised i cant be serious cos i just dont have the heart to be serious. Its this point of time where I have to sternly remind the marching contingent (aka scold, according to miranda) of their commitment to marching but I really cant bear to scold them. I dont like making people feel bad, to see frowns on people's faces. Or maybe I'm just afraid that they may end up not liking me :/ Anw, I'll just feel rly bad. I can convey my message rly well in emails and sms-es, but when it comes to facetoface talking, I'd probably cry first.

Speaking of feeling rly bad, I placed ant poison near the door to get rid of the bigblackants that were invading our class. BUT THEN IT ATTRACTED THE WRONG NEST. It attracted these small tiny ants instead of the big black ones, and i feel really bad, cos i'm killing innocent lives.

Random much?
New perspective is out todayyyyy and I hear spencer or brendon screaming in the back.
It's like 0.5% screamo and its kinda funny. Funny strange, and maybe funny ha-ha.
But again, it makes me sad to not hear ryan's annoying voice at the back, or jon's jonly voice :/
Ryan and jon are releasing their band name and new single tomorrow, and thats just a day after new perspective is released (COPYCAT MUCH)

I GOT A WHOLE PAGE OF BURGER KING COUPONS F YEAH
I see alot of turkey baconz.
I dont feel like being high, cos my "e" button is being a bitch.

2009-07-26T17:21:00.002+08:00

I had a 75 sms long conversation with ryan/rai-yern today.
Thats $3.75 conversation ):
HAHA KIDDING, it was fun.
(To ryan, tagthetagboard if you find my blog)

Catechism class was interesting
REALLY.
Gerard and sam didnt come, so martina came in and told us her stories, which i thought were quite cool. But she kept picking on me :/

yeah, i havent done my malay compo.
I was supposed to do it by 4pm, but its now 5.30 and i havent finished the 1st paragraph. fml.

2009-07-26T00:37:00.003+08:00

GALA DINNER TONIGHTTTT WOO.
Okay fine, i didnt go for it cos i dont have $20,000 to spare for dinner.
I vol-un-teeered, yeah my legs hurt
I didnt sit down from 4pm till 11pm ):
We set up tables (aka blowing shredded pandan leaves under lazy susans) and I gave free carpark coupon cards to those who paid above $20000 for their tables yeah.

Then we went for dinnnnerrrr@10pm, AND I ATE FRIED MARS BARS
which i think are double unhealthies. But it was nice :D

Mmhmm, oh ystd was SIDay
On SIDay we created an SID song&dance, thought of SID outing and shirt, plus did SID stuff (:
yeah we're awesome sick people.

2009-07-23T19:07:00.003+08:00

This is post number 499, just one more till 500.
Haha i feel like a nerd POST NUMBER 500 YEAH WOOTZ WOAH
its like the exciting scary part before a climax of a movie, i've actually posted almost 500 times since i started this blog, and its kinda epic in a way. B)

Had marching today, prefects did rly awesome :D
i'm kinda getting worried for people who havent been coming for marching at all even though they're committed to it, hmm.

IHAVETOGOTOLECTORZNOW. No more tests this week f yeah.
Wait, its the end of the week.

I feel rly awkweird talking here i dont know why
Tumblr feels more like home

"We're gonna start on this journey on learning about circles." -JGan.

2009-07-21T23:39:00.003+08:00

I realised i cant really be a leader, cos i feel reallyreally bad when i tell people to do stuff ):

Anywayzzzz, coach came late for training today, so we decided to play with eunitard's polaroid B)
Yeah.

I HAVE A WHOLE STACK OF PPTS TO COPY FOR LIT D:

2009-07-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

I-HAVE-INTERNET-YESSSSSSS.
My laptop has been hanging since saturday ):
I really really hope nothing's wrong with it.
All my brendon pictures ALL MY PICTURES OMG.
AND MY MUSIC OMG-ER. I SOUND LIKE SUCH A BIMBO BUT I DONT CARE ALL MY FILES WHAT IF MY LAPTOP CANT COME BACK TO LIFE OH NO OH NO OH NO
I've been praying like mad for my laptop to get better.
My mom says its a sign from God that i have to study for all the tests this week :/

sigh.

edit/
I PRAYED SO HARD AND LOOK WHAT IT HAS GOT ME.
MY
LAPTOP
STOPPED
HANGING.
(:

2009-07-17T16:42:00.003+08:00

HI EVERYONE
i dont know what to say
but a lot of things are gonna happen~

like tests, pfft.
And im gonna read tmrw at youth mass, and my brace will be tightened on sunday and monday is bio test and tuesday is a maths test and wedneday is MALAY O LEVEL LISTENING COMPRE and thursday is ss+lit test and friday is free. I think.

I think its too much, srsly.
And i hate my s button ):

"I'm gonna quit school and become a disney princess" -Juliafung

(i need to find a nice picture to put here)

2009-07-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

Post #495 (:

I hate it when teachers/seniors make it seem that not everyone gets re-elected and they keep leaving us in suspense. I hate it when they scold us about our discipline and in the end, tell us not to book people for the little things in life. Stop confusing us, giving us false hopes/fears and we'll be more than willing to love and nurture and contribute even more.

On a lighter note, we watched born into brothels, which is a documentary about this photographer who teaches the kids who live in the brothels with their prostitute mums, about photography, and give them cameras to take pictures with. And i think their pics are rly good (:

Ryan ross should just come out with the truth.
Nobody can believe you when you say you didnt see the coke on the table, WHEN ITS OBVIOUSLY RIGHT THERE ON THE HACKING TABLE.
Pfft, who divides the coke into lines, and just leaves it there?
And keltie knows it too okay.

I made a bet with sydney that i can finish all my hmwk today AND study for chem.
So byebye,
our canteen has a rly pretty cat thats white with blue eyes.
From now on, im gonna stay back till 6pm just to see it.

2009-07-13T21:39:00.003+08:00

MALAY ORAL IS DONE OMG YAY I DONT HAVE TO SPEAK MALAY UNTIL NEXT YEAR, which is higher malay oral oh dang ):
Thankzzz everyone for your goodlucks and hugs!

Ystd, i was downloading albums like a crazy woman
i have like, there for tomorrow, anarbor, jack's mannequin, paramore, ALLTIMELOW-NOTHING PERSONAL!
alexgaskarth's voice is so much way really awesomely better than the other albums yeah :D

I havent done the smp report, and i promised sydney and qiying i'll do it. Okay i shall do it by today. But i have to get to school by 650am tmrw :/

Being marching commander is rly scary, i could hear my voice cracking at the end, which means i was close to crying. HAHA.

And i think i'm rly antisocial around people i dont know or people whom i know can hate me.

2009-07-10T22:58:00.003+08:00

Heyhey head/vicehead prefect nominations are out,
andddd i'm happpppy to say
CONGRATZ TO FARISHA SMALLEY DEBBIE SAMMY ASHLEY AND GAYA! (:
We all know that you guys, whoever the final 3 will be in the end, can create CHANGE~ yupyup

On a different note, ~~I have a very low self esteem.~~
I think i've felt newly broken 3 times today.

oh wait, i'm supposed to be speaking malay for the whole weekend
to prepare for the oral o levels on monday, so here it goesss

Mungkin kamu tidak akan faham apa yang saya sedang bercakap tentang tetapi saya tidak (oh crap whats the word for care). Saya tidak bersetuju akan dua dari enam nominasi pelajar ketua sekolah tetapi saya tidak akan mengatanya di sini. Cuba menebaknya. Jangan takut, sesiapa yang membaca lelaman ini tidak antara dua orang itu. (:

OMG EPIC WIN i feel so malay-nised now.

2009-07-09T23:23:00.004+08:00

I think i should care more about my life than other people who do not impact me in any way.

Still, I'm as scared for ryan's life as i am for my malay o levels.
oh crap, they're next monday

highkicksandhighopes.blogspot.com is a beautiful blog.

Okay i'm going to listen to, i'm going to do, i dont know :/
READ MALAY NEWSPAPER, YES.

2009-07-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

This picture makes me so sick, and makes me wonder what happened to the ryhawk/emo/beatles ryan that i loved.
Btw, thats coke on the plate on the table. Coke = cocaine = drug.
I've got the whole collection of his hippiecoke pics from his friends house, djahcn dfjkh ):
Oh, i've learnt to never watch videos/listen to any pretty.odd. songs in this time.
AFYSCO is still fine, cos the lyrics dont really hit it where it hurts.

Prefects elections were today, and i wasted all ten of my votes on existing prefects.
Haha, you wouldnt call it waste right? Pssshft i dont know :/

Did you guys watch the MJ memorial? I didnt, but i watched random bits and i happened to watch the one where paris jackson cried when she was saying she loved her father very much, and that was really sad.
Mmhmm, and i have to agree that he was such a cute singer when he was young (:

Okay, I'm gonna sign off with what i think brendon and spencer found after ~~ryan and jon, left.~~ the stuff thats been happening.

!

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2009-07-08T01:09:00.001+08:00

I can't breathe.

2009-07-07T02:31:00.006+08:00

Today at 1.30pm 6 July USA, my favourite band, the band that changed my perception of everything, the band i had the most faith in, the band that i idolised, i fangirled over, the band which i have wanted to see so badly live,

has broken up.

Jon and Ryan has left panic, leaving brendon and spencer in panic.
I really hope they dont get replacement people, because that would just be, wrong ):
What I dont understand is:
1. why jon likes the beatles
2. why spencer could bear to leave his childhood friend
3. brendon and ryan.

enough said.

RIPanic that i loved.

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Acceptance is when you stop wondering what they're gonna do next, to go with the flow, to trust in them to continue the band. Acceptance is when you stop listening to their songs on repeat, when you stop talking about them, when you stop creating debates with yourself on why they left and why everything happened the way it happened. Acceptance is when you stop refreshing patdonline.com, twitter and tumblr to see the latest news.

Thanks for being there guys, and i mean you girls in school(:

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I think I'll get over this in a day or two, really. Its actually fine now if i dont think about it. The only thing that'll break me is seeing brendon and spencer performing at the blink-182 concert with different people. With no ryan to snuggle up to/play guitar riffs with/smile at and no jon to be jontastic with his jondals/mandals/man sandals/barefeet.
And thinking that they're making this new album all by themselves.

I think i'm getting on people's nerves and i know that you guys are thinking that i'm overreacting and stuff and that they'll still continue to make music cos they're still technically panic at the disco. They were such a happy family of best friends. Imagine your parents dying, will that make you sad?

From Keltie's (ryan's dear ex) blog:
"First off, I've gotten many messages about the musical breakup- it is really none of my business anymore and I am not sure why y'all care so much what I think, but alas...I think that one of the conditions of being human is thinking that the grass is always greener, that if we just get to this date on a calender, or this weight, or get this job that all of a sudden it will all be ok, and that life will make sense. It never makes any, and I think we all just have to take care of ourselves, our friends and our loves so that we can have the best possible journey. I think that it was a honor to hang out and watch the tail end of the circus tour and watch them create the hippie record. I am honored that many of those songs echoed what was a really wonderful summer/winter/and spring with someone I cared for deeply and spoke of a love that I knew was real. It was a really magical time of believing that we could all change the world, believing that all you needed was love, and watching four best friends tour around the world shouting it from the rafters. (and occasionally me and a beautiful girl named Cassie getting in trouble for throwing balloons and candy into that crowd.) I remember sitting and telling ryan that I had a cool idea for a video that involved his dads old set of russian dolls I had found when I had moved all of his fathers things from his old house...and I guess that says it all... Things have changed. And it's ok. I wish them all the best. But mostly just Cassie. Love you Pilates hottie! "

Now look what you made me do ): sniff.

2009-07-06T18:46:00.001+08:00

This girl is really scared for what's happening with her PB life now,
and she looks chubby here ):

2009-07-05T13:41:00.005+08:00

I think they're a very cute band :')
--

Whenever I try to think of something unique about myself, all i can come up with is that i can solve the rubiks cube. And even then, many more people can do that.

I love radiohead, just because they tell me how i feel.
http://weliveinatoy.tumblr.com/post/135768501/classics-todayslyrics-radiohead-creep
this is my tumblr, and i tell you how i feel.

--

L-O-V-E's just another word i've never learnt to pronounce
-3OH!3

2009-07-04T17:25:00.003+08:00

JUNO IS THE CUTEST/SWEETEST MOVIE I'VE EVER SEEN
Can I fangirl over paulie bleeker cos he's the sweetest guy ever and juno for being juno :D

2009-07-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

I think i'm really bad at making friends, being the antisocial geek i am.
i feel awkward.

HAHA WHY AM I PUTTING MYSELF DOWN,
i think that was a random outburst of starburst (rhymes~~~~)
today is freeeeeeeeeday, and tmrw is dear america's birthday.
I have a dream, that my homework will be finished by today.
I HAVE A DREAM, martinlutherking!

I'm still not sure if there really is a youth day holiday on monday :/
If children's day is such a happy day, why isnt youth day?
why isnt youth day like PROMOTED, or at least made a happyday for youths

THIS IS THE REASON FOR THOSE EMO KIDZ YOU SEE,
they dont feel special on youth day, thats why.
They feel like no one wants them, that once they reach their acne testosterone hormones filled years, no one will like them anymore, that they've expired from kindergarten, that they're not WORTHY of being loved, that they're not important. they feel awkward, they cant act like kids yet they dont want to act like adults, they're not given a chance to act like kids, they're scared for their future they're ostracised they are stereotyped to be suicidal and bitchy and annoying and rebllious

Give emo a chance,
HAHA tagline of the day.
(charlenekesssssler will like this meehee)

Now its time to PARTY LIKE BARACK STAR, obama ftw.
actually no, there's never a time to party like barack star ):

WHAT SHOULD I EAT FOR DINNER, I THINK I'M HAPPY THAT THIS IS THE END OF THE WEEK AND THERE'S NO SCHOOL TOMORROW.
i realised that no one reads my blog anyways cos they're too busy with everything else
one day, i think i'm gonna type a deep dark secret here for five minutes and no one will realise heh.

i'm really scared for panic's new album, but brendon's voice is getting better
i love petewentz just because he's hanging with bden 24/7 and uploading videos of him singing covers, and collaborating with pete and ashlee to sing bronx a lullaby and sing covers and yeah.

I think this is why no one reads my blog, cos i'm uninteresting and weird and awkward and obsessed.
Yes, obsessed.

2009-07-02T23:33:00.002+08:00

Whenever things like SCPB Exco elections come out, i get really scared.
Like, reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally
reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally
reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallylreallyreally
S-C-A-R-E-D
And its not funny.

My bedtime's been around 1am because, homework. :/

Okay I'm really scared.

2009-06-28T14:20:00.004+08:00

I realised i've wasted my whole jun holidays.
I wont be getting any more long holidays like this until JC1 ):
have you realised that?
cosdec 09 is malay o levels, june 2010 is study camps and dec 2010 is o levels

edit/
headline of the day:WALLABIES GET HIGH, MAKE CROP CIRCLES.

i thought the reporter was high.

SKU STARTZ 2 TO THE MORROW, WORD.
hayle, i'm starting to talk like a gangsta yow whatdose teachers gonna do man.

HAHA that was randomdumdom
who really doesnt want to go to school tmrw, stick out your tongue and touch your nose
it's easier than you think.

I'm gonna go brush my teeth for 15 minutes now.

2009-06-27T19:27:00.004+08:00

I was just wondering if I ever got stabbed in the back,
as in LITERALLY, stabbed with a knife in the back by some person
will i be able to pull i out and stab him back and then call my parents or 999.
Do you think I, or you, will?

And i just imagined that scene out. What if he stabbed me on my neck?
Then, I'll just stand up so the blood will flow to my feet, and i wont die of massive blood loss.
What if he used the knife i used to cut my burger?
Then the CSI wont know if its tomato sauce or blood

This is turning mychemicalromance-ish.

Hehe (omg i just used the weird pedo laugh) i was just wondering anyways~~~~
I did one lit essay (3 long questions) and one ss essay and now i'm doing this whole stack of geog tutorials. i hate geog. i really think i shouldve taken full lit instead.

do you like my new blog song?
i think arttm has cute songs.
nick santino, dblaise, cassadee and elliot should make a little junior-fbr club since they're like the youngest, that'll be cute.
oh and have you heard the new single of BLG's love drunk album?
www.myspace.com/boyslikegirls
go hear it, love drunk (:

You got me love drunk, now i'm hungover.

edit/ i realised how dead i sound up there. sigh, i need to listen to happy songs, like nevershoutnever. have you realised how he doesnt put spaces in his song titles?
maybehisspacebarisbroken.

I THINK I'M ATTRACTED TO ONLY MUSICIANS
srsly, have you ever heard me say that cole mohr (model) or uh, lucas till (that guy in taylor swift's video) are omnomnoms?

and i dont know why i like guys who wear guyliner as much as those who dont.
maybe i'm secretly emo. but i dont think i am.
I think mikey way and billie joe armstrong and the guy from the jesus of suburbia video look, nice. but they give sydney nightmares~ HAHA.

I'm really scared for panic's new single, new perspective coming out on August 18.
reallyreallyreally scared. what if they turn into weird hippie weed smokerz? ):
ryro's alrd hanging out with creepy weird dudes.
WAIT A MINUTE, THIS STUFF IS FOR TUMBLR.

THERE'S ONE MORE DAY TILL SCHOOL, this sucks ballzzz.

2009-06-25T22:31:00.001+08:00

I think its so fun when your friend gets the swine flu and she webcams you the room in which she's quarantined in.
GET WELL SOON ______. (she doesnt want to be revealed)

2009-06-24T19:48:00.003+08:00

DR KOH LOVES OUR PROJECT AND I'M HAPPY.

I am shiny
oh, republic poly's fire drill went off today and we had to evacuate the building
apparently it was real.
so qiying and i went to 7/11 to buy mash potatoes, cup noodles and nachos (yum) while being evacuated.

mmhmm, yeah thats all i guess
i havent finished my homework, and i havent studied for geog.
more and more people are getting on twitter, MIRANDA HAS TWITTER haha
so does cherlyn and shanice and ella.

found some fun websites yesterday
killerjo.net andandand sourmath.com
haha damn fun~~~

AND WHOEVER DOESNT THINK SURI CRUISE IS THET CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD HAS NO SOUL.
and hi daddy cruise.

andandand JON AND KATE FROM JON AND KATE PLUS EIGHT HAVE SPLIT ):

2009-06-21T20:13:00.005+08:00

watched drag me to hell on friday with mel and charlene
half the time i was preparing my hands in front of my face, but it was a nice movie
FIRST HORROR MOVIE YAY.

then on saturday went to watch monsters vs aliens with the family
wasnt as funny as i expected it to be

is it just me, or am i becoming less amused by disney/kids funny and more amused by other things :/ that scares me. sigh.

I HAVE TO DO MY HOMEWORK BY TODAY, OR KILL ME.
the whole day was spent looking at:
a. adam lambert
b. kris allen
c. american idolzzz twitter
d. ryan ross' twitter
e. and of course, tumblr.com my bb.

damn.

but srsly, HAVE YOU SEEN HOW SEXY ADAM LAMBERT CAN BE, AND I'VE NEVER CALLED ANYONE SEXY, EVER. even brendon urie or martin johnson, they're just omnomnoms to the max.

look at those lips, those sunnies, THAT HAIR.

weliveinatoy.tumblr.com
i've renovated it, it looks much more clean-cut.
more adam/kris/panic/lomography/random goodness there
NO WORDZ THERE AT ALL, happy?

what am i still doing here, MITCHELL DAVIS, random outburst of happiness.
i love it how on some days i check youtube, and none of my favourite youtubers upload any videos then on another day, suddenly all of them upload a video at the same time.
For example, TODAY~ was smosh and fred and nigahiga, its not that often that they upload videos.
Anthony padilla looks awesome in a dress shirt and pants, mytwin4lyfe.

TWINZ4LYFE:
anthony padilla from smosh
nick jonas from the jonas brothers (ew ew ew images of joe jonas dancing to all the single ladies, in a leotard.)
MM LEE KUAN YEW.
david copperfield

but my birthday's not even coming up, psshfft.
BIRTHDAYZ MAKE YOU OLD.
TODAY IS KRIS ALLEN'S BIRTHDAY!
AND SMELLEEE'S BIRTHDAY TOO, I FORGOT TO WISH HER OH NO.

i like how they pair people for slash/bromances like kradam and RYDEN and pinto (think star trek) and frerard and peterick, yeah.
theymakeme happy.

i dont even know what i talked about in this post,
i realised i like the picture on my blog (:

H
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W
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needs to be done, cant say i'm stoqued.

did you know cassadee pope was a cheerleader? okay, not too hard to imagine.

2009-06-18T15:31:00.004+08:00

Okay second-and-a-half post of the day
(Just because blogger wants to count the post that i posted at 1am to be today's)

I had a dream last night that I met panic.
I got pictures with them and talked to them and stuff (must be the slash)

And it saddens me that this will only remain a dream, and dreams only last for a night.

--

2009-06-18T15:16:00.003+08:00

I like how words can be strung together to make something really beautiful.
I'm restraining myself from using epic teehee.

I've read two really good stories lastnight/morning and i just finished the other one.
One's a book called I Am The Messenger and its a really good book, COMPARED TO THE REALLY CRAPPY ONE CALLED GUATANAMO BOY I READ BEFORE THAT.
Anyways, this book aint boring and pride and prejudice to kill a mocking bird charles dickens ps i love you type of nice.
It's full of booze, sex and underaged driving, but its still nice.
Just read it, it made me cry.

ANDANDAND the other story i read last night was SLASH.
SLASH does not equal to porn. no it does not farisha. yeah okay, some websites mainly focus on the doing it but but but stick to beggarsnotes.livejournal.com and you'll be fine.
BECAUSE I think slash is very beautiful too, it's not cheesycornywhatever kind of love.

eventhough its about your favourite bands and its mostly gay~
but that adds to the, idk, reader's i-actually-know-what-the-writers-trying-to-say-ness
and the fact that they add their personalities in, and describe how they look and you actually can imagine what they look like because, heck it's brendon urie (or whoever) they're talking about.

okay i dont think i'm making sense, but i think slash is way more meaningful than the nc-17 rated stuff.

And I like beautiful stories.
Have you realised that we're all beautiful stories in a way too?

(okay i've been reading way too many tumblr pictures.)

--

2009-06-18T00:07:00.003+08:00

Have you ever been caught in a situation where you're with two people, and they're talking amongst themselves in whispers and you just know they're talking about you?

Well, that happened today. That's why I left.

2009-06-16T22:34:00.004+08:00

okayyyy i think i've just been disappointed by miley cyrus
i heard about recent ~~~rumours about her, and people saying "I NEED TO BLEACH MY EYES" and stuff like that, so i went and googled her name

AND OH MY GEEE, no wait, OH MY F GEEE (adam lambert moment :D ) i've never seen such, uh, revealing pictures of herself, like lifting up her shirt and revealing only her underwear and stuff
and then there's this other picture going aroung in tumblr which shows her sucking something you should not suck at the tender age of 16/17.

i mean like, she was one of my favourite disney people cos she seemed so innocent and cute
BUT DUMDUMDUMMM.
and she's listed as one of the top 100 most influential people of the year GREAT.

oh and there's another picture of her little sister and apparently her little sister's friend, on the red carpet with a dress that is just below the butt cheek, they look like frikkin taitai-s.

WHAT IS THE (DISNEY) WORLD COMING TO? ):

haha i just realised my pun there, disneyworld teehee.

2009-06-15T12:55:00.009+08:00

i want to be a talented person,
i don't think i'm talented.

i want to be like brendon urie who can backflip and do the worm and play 8 different instruments really well and he can fucking sing and he's liked by many ~~fangirls~~ people and has a great personality.

i want to be like mitchell davis who has an awesome sense of humour, and he is an artist and he is a photographer and he has all the cameras i want.

i want to be like johnny depp who can act like jack sparrow and willy wonka and and and in serious movies too

i want to be like green day who are still epic after 15 years in the music industry and still look epic

i want to be like patrick stump who has an amazing voice and doesnt care about his appearance and is still cool even though he was the kid that everyone would pick on in school

i want to be like pete wentz who stands up for what is right even though half the world hates him and loves and protects his child (BRONX OMG SQUISH HIM) and his wife like there's no tomorrow

i want to be like keltie colleen who stayed strong even after her boyfriend (ryanross) cheated on her and is an epicamazingawesome dancer and the hardest worker ever and has succeeded in the dance industry through sheer talent and hard work. she is amazing, my idol. plus she "won custody" of hobo.
http://community.livejournal.com/bandgirls/33228.html
http://siren-mage.livejournal.com/268324.html

i may be biased since i love all of them so much, but i dont care
they're all so epic in a way, and i want to be like them too.

2009-06-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

went to the beach today with mommy
DRANK STARBUCKS FOR THE FIRST TIME THIS YEAR i'm so deprived
people watching is fun

I WANT A DOG.
oh, we saw this family who were walking their rabbit. yes, it was on a leash.
then uh watched this skateboard thingy with only two wheels uh huh.
yup thats all~~~

2009-06-12T01:12:00.003+08:00

i think it's really scary how people our age can have 4, or even more exes
i'm not calling you scary, but just yknw, surprised (explains the boomboompowwow i said haha)
cos you wouldnt believe that i had none (:
which is funny, haha funny.
cute.

i made a new friend today
his name is joel sundram the slowpoke
hi pokey.

2009-06-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG ADAM FACKING LAMBERT HAD A CRUSH ON KRIS ALL THIS FACKING WHILE OHMYSHIT OMG I'M SO HAPPY I'M SMILING TO MYSELF OH MY GOAT.
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/rtrs/20090610/ten-entertainment-us-lambert-db3f2d5.html

GO LOOK GO LOOK GLOOOOGOKGKLKSJKRSHJKSHFJKSHDFJSHBJCFSBJ,

anyways, TODAY
i went out with the SCIJ GANG :D
thats nic mi mel ven gen haha
we had an adventure from one end of botanics to the other, after getting some island ice cream
yeah, with my laptop. my shoulder hurts

I'M STILLSOFACKINGHAPPY
kradam lives~~~~

2009-06-07T16:42:00.002+08:00

went to watch night at the museum 2
tbh, it was quite awkward, i mean a lot of awkward moments
I THINK AMELIA EARHART IS A TOTAL PERV.
wasnt that good anyways (but then again i might be wrong. i said that angus, thongs and perfect snogging was bad, but everyone loved it, so idk.)

this morning was holytrinity's food & fun fair
saw manymany people, sold papadam and cookies and yeah.

i need to upload my photos.

2009-06-06T22:50:00.002+08:00

went to arina's concert with geraldine germaine and siti! :D
siti is crazy, geraldine is crazy, and germaine. omg, she's CRAZY.
germaine= lip/tongue piercings, EARPLUGS OMG, TPG (towerpuffgang/tongue piercing gang), RAYWYNRAYWYN WIN AT LIFE HAHA.

yupyup.

2009-06-04T20:16:00.004+08:00

Today is random lomography day, where i pick a random lomograpic photo from my files.

went to holland v for the first time today, WHICH WAS KICK AWESOME.

actually it wasnt

frolick is a total rip-off.

R-I-P-OFF.

i couldve bought two yami yoghurts at the price of one frolick yoghurt

and they have the same toppings PLEASE.

coach told me that holland v has the cheapest electronic store in singapore,

so maybe i'm gonna check that out for holgas and cameras and ipods and whatnots

FLEAAAAAA MARKET this sunday, should i go?

i just did a panic spam on tumblr, cos i started looking through patdonline.com's galleries

i think brendon has natural goodlooks, and if he has the right type of hair, such as the 2006 photoshoots, or the one where they are on the barge in the sea, then he is to die for.

WELIVEINATOY.TUMBLR.COM

OHYEAH, t-o-m-o-r-row is peter wentz's birthday and he's turning THIRTY.

bowchickaWOW, that is old.

i love bronx i love bronx i love bronx SQUISHIM.

i dont care about his name, HE IS SO CUTE.

i love you pete and ashlee for making himmmmmm~

tumblr makes me talk more on blogger, cos i talk less there :/

ohyeah, HAVE YOU SEEN ADAM FUCKING LAMBERT AND HIS BOYFRIEND

they're cute together.

checkmytumblr.

2009-06-03T19:50:00.004+08:00

hello, i havent been here for a longlong time.
school hols have started (4 days ago) and my whole month is packed,
it's disgusting really
because its packed with only two major events going on
this week will be my only week that i'm free, relatively.

thursday and friday i'll be going back to casuarina to be a fac for the little prefects :D
mmhmm, then saturday i'll be off to watch a concert
and the whole of next week is smp ):
yeah.

i think celebrities and popstars and the likes are actually a lot deeper than you think
take for example pete's support of stuff on his blog (petewentz.com)
and gabe saporta's view on nostalgia, and basically life on his NEW tumblr (gsaporta.tumblr.com)

speaking of tumblr, IT'S WORSE THAN FACEBOOK.
its so distracting and stuff, sigh.
but its fun.
i think my total brendon pictures are more than the total ryanspencerjon pictures i have
i need more martin johnson pictures though
AND IAN CRAWFORD HAS LEFT THE CAB
which is surprising, cos i wouldnt imagine any ANY fueledbyramen bandmembers to be leaving the band since they're all very young

i dont think anyone here at blogger is interested in anything i have to say about bands and stuff, and i think that's the main reason why i partially migrated to tumblr, to view other's-who-have-the-same-interest-as-me's tumblrs.
this includes getting tons and tons and MILLIONS of pictures of my favourite bands

have i told you?
MITCHELL DAVIS IS MY SECOND MOST TALENTED PERSON EVER.
the first being brendon-fucking-urie-who-can-do-anything of course
have you seen mitchell davis' photographs at his flickr? (check my tumblr to see the website)
and omg his youtube channels.

i think he has some sort of adhd or smth
not to mention he is such an eyecandy.
check my tumblr for his videossss~

(okay by now i know everyone does not know what i'm saying so that is why i am like, forced to go to tumblr i guess. i dont know. sigh)

looking like becketttt.

~~~~strangewiggles~~~~

nick jonas has taken the lead of the brojobs

YAY, I SUPPORT MY TWIN BRUDDER. FTW.

i know this isnt nick, but whatever.

"omgwtfbbq i'm sitting next to GOD. omgomgomgomg does he see me omg does my hair smell nice omgomgomgomg i want to cry."

love your pokerface dear.

i feel like talking forever.

but i know no one will read this anyways, except joyce tay.

i know you're reading this joyce, you stalker. HAHA, kidding.

bumwigglebum.

I LIKE LOMOGRAPHY, AND YOU SHOULD TOO.

brojobsbrojobs JOBROS.

ohyeah, have i mentioned i hate demi lovato?

well now i have.

omg, the jobros are coming out with a disney comedy called, JONAS.

i applaud the originality, really i do.

tumblarity suckz.

2009-05-30T20:39:00.005+08:00

i made a brendon urie doll.

it's those beads that you put together and it'll melt and stick together :D
in my doll, he's wearing a v-neck red shirt, with yellow boxers and black skinnies ANDANDAND BLUE CONVERSESSSSS
i know he has that outfit okay, i just have to find a picture of it.
(okay fine, only ryan wears v-necks, but hey, one can imagine)

brendon looks good in red.

partially red v-neck

BLUE CONVERSES OMG I LOVED THEIR MTV SPOT.

black skinnies, AND REDDD~

2009-05-30T02:06:00.003+08:00

oh my (i cant use the lord's name in vain).
its 2.07am and i just finished reading the black rose season on beggarsnotes after three whole nights staying up
now you know why i lost my voice and got sick

that was facking epic.
it wasnt just superficial ryden. it was, damn. speechless.
“I’ve missed you,” I end up whispering. Brendon says nothing, and I bite on my tongue, afraid I’ve said too much.

2009-05-27T20:46:00.003+08:00

this is lomography, and it's as pretty as you and me
i want a holga please.

i skipped school today cos i didnt want to take my physics test
HAHA, and i was sick.

I WANT THE OLD PANIC BACK PLEASEPLEASE.
but anyways, watching the live in denver videos of panic made me want to buy the AFYCSO boxed set so i can get the dvd ):
sigh, i was only 11 or 12 when panic first came out in 2005/2006
and the concert's like rated NC16 please, cos of all the INNUENDOES

speaking of innuendoes, what happened to I squared people?!
IT'S DEAD.
farishapwsydney start posting on it nao

i need to get tomato juice to bring to chem prac tmrw.
tumblr is freaking distracting cos it's like real-time updates of whne people post so i keep refreshing and stuff
but tumblr is my source of my favourite things
(read: lomography, martin/poolie/blg, PANIC duh, funny stuff etc)
dangbangboomboomPOW, black eyed peas are cool (except the asian guy, he's weird)

i think i'm obsessed with kradam now, THEY'RE THE CORE OF CUTENESS TTM.
i need to watch more ryden to cleanse and neutralise myself.
i need to make ryden = kradam
but as of now, kradam > ryden

2009-05-25T20:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPYBIRTHDAYMARIANNNNN
sorry i couldnt get you a giraffe party hat from my sister's birthday :/

HAPPYBIRTHDAYLEEEEWEEEE my deskie
i was gonna put up a picture of hellokitty
but i realised it wasnt korean. damn.

i havent gone here for 27398216378 boomboompow
i like my new songs, tumblr doesnt support playlists ):
only plays one song at a time

RAHHHHHH, i have to study for feesiks or else i phail.

OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOOH SANTA CLAUS
today, after school/wii fit phuongsydneyqiying and i were playing truth and truth
and we uncovered some dirtylittlesecretz
PHUONG WHERE IS HE I WANNA SEEEE.
okay moving to facebook now, gonna see her friend

cheated feelings.

2009-05-24T12:31:00.001+08:00

i read for the first time today in front of the whole church
which was COOL. 8)

and yeah, another staring incident dammit.
shun you tisa.

off to tumblr, 124 updates after 10 hours.

2009-05-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

this is my sad face because adam lambert lost.
damn you teeny boppers.

2009-05-20T21:11:00.003+08:00

i think i spend too much time on tumblr.

I'M SO EXCITED
BRENDON'S GONNA BE ON AMERICAN IDOL TONIGHT COS OPEN HAPPINESS WILL BE PREMIERING ON IT TONIGHT OMG OMG OMG OMG ITS LIKE ADAM LAMBERT AND BRENDON URIE AND PATRICK STUMP ON THE SAME STAGE
:D

tumblr rocks your balls okay, because you can follow people who love brendon/ryan/martin/pooolie!/panic/spencer/jon/etc as much as you do.
damn.
okay its 47 more minutes till american idol i better do my ss

AND NOW, OFF TO TUMBLR.

PS. i got my teeth extracted on monday and there's a hole where my tooth used to be
oh, and a healthy tooth is as long as the first segment of your index finger.
if you dont believe me, ask me for my tooth. :B

2009-05-17T20:37:00.001+08:00

went to the dentist today and thought she was gonna extract my teeth, so i wore red.
HAHA, cos i might bleed on my shirt and therefore wearing red makes it less obvious

but she didnt.

instead she put these rubberbandz btwn my teeth,
and it feels like you've got a piece of steak back there, but you dont.

dang.

2009-05-16T16:11:00.001+08:00

today is a happy day because:
1. cassadee is on the cover of seventeen magazine
2. there are pretty things in the june issue of seventeen
3. i got 21st century breakdown :D :D :D :D :D
4. I GOT MY FIRST X RAY AND I LOOK REALLY AWESOME IN IT.

2009-05-15T20:49:00.002+08:00

MALAYSIA CONFIRMS FIRST CASE OF SWINE FLU.
ohmyswine, as farisha would say, "that's unhalal!".

today, led parents of willing DSA kidz around the school
they were nice (:

after that, slacked with sydney at the khoo audi,
hearing strange knocks from the secret doors leading to the bus bay
and seeing birds/bats fly in there for the first time

watchedddd CHOIR CONCERT :D
awzm.

offtotumblrrr.
i guess that'll be my new sign off thing.

AND I CANT WAIT TO GET THE GREEN DAY CD
OKAY I'M GONNA GO REPLACE MY SONG.

2009-05-11T09:16:00.005+08:00

i havent blogged in ages zomg.
its nine in the afternoon, and i'm getting ready to go for ______.
i cant reveal it now, cos its supposed to be a surprise :D

last friday, sydney and i stayed back after wii fit and staying back in school is always fun.
we almost died, cos pesticide smoke filled up the whole outside of the khoo audi, and we were trapped.
i learnt that countries have funny names, and that you should never scare yourself with closets.

off to tumblrrrr~

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I'M BACK AND NERDIFIED.
waited for pw and sydney until 11.30am with smalley and julia
surprised farisha
raced taxis to cineleisure
ate at burger king
watched STAR TREK HHAHAHAHAHAHA.
but it was quite okay, though it was on the verge of turning into a nerd movie,
one more hand signal and i'll classify it as G for geek.

I LOVE CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK,
AND SPOCK BROUGHT BACK THE GUYLINER TO THE FUTURE :D

I TOLD YOU (PW AND SYDNEY) THAT SPOCK CAN BE HOT DAMMIT.

anyways, realised smalley had the vulcan haircut
took neoprintz
and thats it heh.

i just realised i was speaking like some star trek geek.

2009-05-07T23:14:00.001+08:00

thoughts on american idol @ tumblr 8)

2009-05-07T18:20:00.003+08:00

WHAT IS THAT IF FOR?!?!?!??!?!
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HOW CAN ALLISON GET KICKED OUT D:
i hate this season's american idol, cos i cant bear to vote off any of the last four
i'm sad now. I'LL BE SAD FOR THE FOLLOWING EPISODES BECAUSE ONE BY ONE ALL THE GOOD SINGERS WILL GET KICKED OUT.
i mean, cant they just end the episode NOW.
make all four of them american idols alrd, since its so obvious that adam lambert would win (duh)

): ): ): ): ):

2009-05-06T21:10:00.000+08:00

epic fangirl/picspam moment on martinjohnson/jesus of suburbia (stjimmyyyyy)/pete being pathetic @ tumblr.

i like wii fit.
i want an iphone.

2009-05-04T17:15:00.002+08:00

I FINALLY LEARNT HOW TO UPLOAD SCREENSHOTS :D
paul digiovanni and martin johnson are hot, no questions asked.
this girl likes these boys in boys like girls 8)

2009-05-03T14:14:00.001+08:00

my sister has a crush on gerald.
he's seventeen.

whats the world coming to omg.

2009-05-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

did CIP this morning though it seemed like 8370347 days ago cos i sleep too much.
charles was nice and we walked around sengkang blocks to collect newspaper
its kinda surprising how unwilling people are in opening doors,
yet amazing how much newspaper they can give us :D
(and how can anyone NOT read newspapers please.)

i have to start studying for bio
alright i'm off to tumblr to panic spam BYE
and ryan finally got a tumblr.

2009-05-01T18:19:00.003+08:00

i'm moving to tumblr for panic picspams and other cool stuff, but i'll stay on blogger for my daily boring posts.

2009-04-30T21:21:00.004+08:00

thats sex on legs.
martin johnson makes me happy

NEW FAVOURITE PICTURE OF THE YEAR.
martinjohnson is a swoonie
mariann is a swannie.

school is killing us with 3 frikkin tests every week, two weeks in a row
oh wait, make that 4 for nextnext week :/

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i'm too lazy to post both here and on tumblr, so to read cool stuff 8)
go HERE
WELIVEINATOY.TUMBLR.COM
OR
TWITTER.COM/DEARPACIFICDAY
kthxb.

cool like fluffy llamas.

2009-04-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

its so sad that nationals are gonna be over after the B div free relay tmrw
its so sad that the seniors (mel&kristen) will be stepping down
its so sad that i havent done any of my homework
its so sad.

BUT PETE WENTZ BLOGGED ABOUT BRENDON URIE SO I'M HAPPY.

2009-04-27T19:16:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK VAUGHN STUMP :D
with the golden voice.

yesterday, while cycling to downtown east to get subway for dinner,
i saw a monitor lizard eating a bird at the edge of the canal.
COOL.

2009-04-26T17:49:00.002+08:00

its great to be back in catechism class
WE HAVE A NEW TEACHER
cos apparently samantha and gerard and ian?! quit.

left early to spend 4 frikkin hours doing nothing at my parents' friends house
they had a cat. on the balcony.
didnt get to go support synchro nationals cos i was too late to get there ):

i'm hungry for subway.

2009-04-25T22:10:00.002+08:00

sydney and i got lost IN the national library today
then we found a study lounge where you can eat and study and not talk O:
its really scary cos it was so quiet,
so we went out to the rooftop garden thing and i slept there while she did the work.

i'm starting to like kinder joy eggs!
:D

2009-04-24T18:35:00.002+08:00

nationals this year was really bad.
i dont mean like organisation bad,
i mean ME bad ):

for all three days, i underperformed by so much, i could see the disappointment in coach's eyes, even though he tells me "good swim".
sigh.

anyways, congratz to everybuddy for doing so welllll, especially the 50 free people :D
awesum job.
next week:
andrea in 200 IM
phyllis in 200 breast?
emelia in 50 fly
B div free and medley relays
C div medley relay
SC SWIMMERS WILL RULE THE FINALZ 8)

now its back to school, (and wii fit woooo~~~~)
i'm very sorry leewee if i srsly pissed you off
blame my 2GY spirit and my hyper genes.
i'll tone down a bit, i'm really sorry :/

2009-04-22T19:27:00.003+08:00

MEGASADFACE.
i did badly for nationals ystd
i lost my whole container of FOOD, which is the most impt thing to me. (the second one is brendon urie)
i missed malay remedial today
i dont even feel scared for 200 breast and relay tmrw

anyways, CONGRATULATIONS ANDREA THE TALL FOR GETTING INTO FINALS WE LUB YOU TOTHEMAX. :D
and AWESOME job team, everyone one did really well (:

the wii fit has started off really well
the participants look really enthu and stuff so i'm really happy
i'm happier cos now sydney and me have an aircon-ed room, where we can eat and do hmwk and play the wii!

i think tumblr's really awzm.
weliveinatoy.tumblr.com
and check out frances' toooo, awesome panic/fbr fan B)
jacketinnuendo.tumblr.com

2009-04-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

nationals are tmrw.
sc swim, for the win (it could almost rhyme)
:D

2009-04-18T21:09:00.003+08:00

THE CHURCH OF HOT ADDICTION is one of the cool songs of cobra starship.
dont lie, i know you love cobra starship too B)

guess what i bought today.
2 boxes of oreo, a big bar of cadbury blackforest, a packet of peanut butter mnms and a box of poptarts
i'm such a fatty, but these are for getting me through next (hell) week.
start of smp and nationals and malay oral next week
sadfacesadfacesadfacesadfacesadfacesadface

i love poptarts like a fat boy loves cake.

i went to the new mall at tampines today
its called tampines 1, which looks like a baby vivo srsly.
went straight to topshop and admired all the pretty stuff there
I EVEN FOUND HOT PINK PLASTIC AVIATORS WOOO~
and topshop just makes me feel (very) poor.
i just went there to buy a stretch belt, but they didnt have stock ):

weliveinatoy.tumblr.com

2009-04-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

it's 12.36 in the morning, and i'm eating a binner/dinnfast of famous amos cookies
SMP's going against us, that's why i'm up in the morning with no tests to study for O:

i need a tumblr.
(wordboner is my new addiction)

to my fellow smp team mates:

2009-04-16T20:03:00.001+08:00

Yo momma's so dumb that,
Girl: Mom, i bought new jeans!
Mom: Really? What brand?
Girl: Guess.
Mom: Levis.

2009-04-14T20:03:00.002+08:00

people like him make me happy in times of physics-mugging.

2009-04-13T20:12:00.002+08:00

12/4/09- panic family photo, except shaneeevaldes
i like how ryan is leaning towards brendon.

i failed geog ):
and i should start staying back with sydney and phuong more haha.

2009-04-12T00:15:00.007+08:00

12.16am

ITS 16 MINUTES LATE BUT BETTER LATE THAN NEVER.
HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY BRENDON BOYD URIE :D
i lavvvv you.
omg, i never thought this day would come omgomg :D
HAHA I'M SO HAPPAYE.

oh and happy easter toooo everyone :D

good luck to debbie and sandy and their senior for track finals tmrw!

jump/run well haha

AND PEOPLE SAY ITS SANDY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY

so HAPPYBIRTHDAY! (you have the same birthday as brendon urie D: )

and kyle's gonna get me tictac wooo
i hope you're feeling better (:
--

sydney can be very sick.
"i'm good in bed"
"i slept with my cousins today"

2009-04-10T14:43:00.007+08:00

i'm listening to green day albums, like nimrod, american idiot, dookie
and i remember why i loved them so much :D
they're coming out with a new album 21st century breakdown
and I LOVE THE SINGLE, KNOW YOUR ENEMY.

but JESUS OF SURBURBIA is still cool 8)

and happy good friday everyone!
okay that's ironic, cos good friday is supposed to be mournful.
and i think God i crying now, cos there's like a thunderstorm outside
--

WHO WANTS TO GO TO FLEA TITAN WITH ME.
THEY'RE GONNA SELL FOREVER 21 STUFF OMGOMGOMGOMG.

--

OH OH AND LAST NIGHT WAS DEEDEE'S BBQ PARTAYE. :D
haha thanks for the awzm food and thanks to your hwachong friends for cooking!
AND ALL THE GOSSIP OMG.
we can totally fill a magazine, seriously

and there was this woman who was swimming in the pool in the middle of the night?!
and sydney and me were so scared cos SHE HAD NO FACE?!?!?!?!?!
i really couldnt see her face okay, and she had long black hair and she was freaking glowing in the pool, like an alien O:
so debbie and cheryl had to bring us PAST THE POOL, and through the stairs to meet my parents in the carpark so scary so scary so scary.

2009-04-09T15:45:00.002+08:00

cobra starship is my new 2nd favourite band
(haha panic will always be first)
--
SPORTS DAY WAS AWZM.
i have a green tinted goatee cos of mariann who put green paint all over me
4x100m team got 3rd! really surprising.
and swimteam got 2nd (last) HAHA :D
but we still rock.

AND SOUPY TOOK MY SHREK EARS.
cos we were supposed to bring stuff that matched the primary school house colour we're supporting, which was green
then when i had to run, soupy took it and ran away!

oh and farishapwcynthiamariannsmalley and i missed the guest of honour's speech cos we were in the toilet, cleaning our paint off, and discovering pretty nail polish in the toilet!
O:

and 3SY got class champs, and sandy got individual champ
8) WOOO.

2009-04-08T23:20:00.004+08:00

my mom thinks that whenever i meet up with my friends, we'll gossip.
yes, she has issues.
that's why i always turn down outings with friends and stuff cos it's the iron fist that my mom uses (and her deprived childhood) pssht.
omg, i think she has an endless supply of nag and voice
she's been nagging right behind me for 5 minutes straight.

cant wait for sports day tmrw,
I'M GONNA WEAR SHREK EARZ.
look out for me!
and we'll be wearing our pink shirts for the first time wooo
--
I CANT BELIEVE BRENDON URIE IS DATING JEREMY DAVIS' (paramore bassist) EX?!
O:

2009-04-06T18:38:00.003+08:00

who needs edward cullen when you have ryan ross.
(oh no the picture aint showing.)

--
I'VE STARTED READING BOOKS (again) (:
and i wish many-ants all the best for all her projects and that she can do it okay!

2009-04-05T09:41:00.002+08:00

PARTYMARTYPARTYMARTYPARYTMARTY.
martin johnsonn wooooo

2009-04-04T15:00:00.002+08:00

nom nom nom partymarty.

2009-04-03T23:38:00.004+08:00

woooo its 11.38pm and i just got back from church
i was late ):
cos my dad told me to take a bus, and the first bus was like totally packed and the second bus never came, so my dad told me to take the MRT
and i had to go from khatib allll the way to tampines :/

i was pissed at everything HAHA
i was pissed at the train for stopping so much,
at my dad cos he told me the wrong things,
the person who squashed me when the train was full
AT EVERYTHING ):

my friends were looking for me too
charlene called and bonnie sms-ed so that made me more worried that i'll miss out alot.
kyle called too, which is kinda strange.
he's the last person i would think would call me haha
(charlene thinks he likes me, but i think not. )
--

BRENDON URIE HAS A TWITTER I AM HAPPY.

2009-04-02T20:30:00.003+08:00

today's such a bad day.

time trials wasnt up to standard,
dropped by like 1.5seconds from the first time trials
and my goggles came off on BOTH relaytrials :/

then now, swim camp is the first week of june hols
i can expect the awesomest time with the coolest people ever 8)
the fatboy/littleman/rolex groupie will unite again!

but SLC is happening at the exact same time,
and i've been offered a place as a facilitator
which is kinda good, cos it can get in my resume and whatever
and seeing the fun i had during last year's SLC, there's no doubt that being a fac would be fun too

this sucks ballz.
should i go for swimcamp, where i'll definitely have fun, but its 300bucks?
or should i go for SLC where i most probably have fun, cos i hate talking to people i dont know/faciliating a group, but will look good on my testimonials and academic crap like that,
thats apparently good for my future ._.

let's ask God.

2009-04-01T22:30:00.003+08:00

YAY OMG FALL OUT BOY PERFORMED ON JAY LENO TONIGHT IN USA AND GUESS WHO SANG WITH THEM GUESS WHO GUESS WHO GUESS WHOOOOOO.
(brendon urie)
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
america's suitehearts.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGMvVQrUBCg

--
i got my ic ystd before swim training and i look ugly.
LIKE A MAID.

showing eunice:
"ARE YOU STUPID OMG, THIS IS GONNA LAST YOU FOR 15 YEARS."

showing my mom:
"you dont look like a maid, cos everyone's is in black and white!"

showing my dad:
".......well, at least you got your ic."

>:/
HAHA, my ic is such a loser thing.

--

SOURMATH
awesome.

2009-03-31T22:28:00.003+08:00

2009-03-29T15:09:00.002+08:00

earth hour in pasir ris was epic fail
the badminton courts still had their stadium lights on HAHA
and like i can still see lights on D:

--
Sprouting suns and ageless daughters. says:
how come you didnt come today!
Let's do the panic tonight. says:
don't want i am still recovering from a badhaircut

--
PICK 7 RANDOM GUYS

1. ryan downsyndrome lim
2. kyle kumar
3. shaun shelvan
4. shreyas
5. BRENDON URIE
6. MARTIN JOHNSON
7. santa claus.

Would you ever date number 2?
HAHAH

Are you close to number 7?
i wish, so he could give me everything i want.

How did u meet number 6?
i'venevermethim ):

Will you ever marry number 4?
PSSHT HAHA.

How did u meet 3?
i've never met him either :/

What would you do if number 1 confessed love for you?
i would laugh my head off.

If any of them sweet talked you, who would you believe the most?
BRENDON URIE

Name one memory with nu. 4:
i called him eggy in primary school

How did u meet number 5?
I WISHED I COULD MEET HIM.

Who has the nicest clothing?
martinjohnson :D

Have you ever liked any of them?
YES OF COURSE.

2009-03-28T18:28:00.000+08:00

nigahiga-pwned

i spend my time watching cool videos like this
PWNED.